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What if all the crushes you ever had found out how you felt about them…all at once? Sixteen-year-old Lara Jean tuy vậy keeps her love letters in a hatbox her mother gave her. They aren’t love letters that anyone else wrote for her; these are ones she’s written. One for every boy she’s ever loved—five in all. When she writes, she pours out her heart & soul và says all the things she would never say in real life, because her letters are for her eyes only. Until the day her secret letters are mailed, & suddenly, Lara Jean’s love life goes from imaginary to lớn out of control.
Chapter 1 1 JOSH IS MARGOT’S BOYFRIEND, BUT I guess you could say my whole family is a little in love with him. It’s hard to lớn say who most of all. Before he was Margot’s boyfriend, he was just Josh. He was always there. I say always, but I guess that’s not true. He moved next door five years ago but it feels lượt thích always. My dad loves Josh because he’s a boy & my dad is surrounded by girls. I mean it: all day long he is surrounded by females. My dad is an ob-gyn, and he also happens khổng lồ be the father of three daughters, so it’s like girls, girls, girls all day. He also likes Josh because Josh likes comics và he’ll go fishing with him. My dad tried to lớn take us fishing once, & I cried when my shoes got mud on them, và Margot cried when her book got wet, và Kitty cried because Kitty was still practically a baby. Kitty loves Josh because he’ll play cards with her và not get bored. Or at least pretend khổng lồ not get bored. They make đơn hàng with each other—if I win this next hand, you have lớn make me a toasted crunchy-peanut-butter-sandwich, no crusts. That’s Kitty. Inevitably there won’t be crunchy peanut butter và Josh will say too bad, pick something else. But then Kitty will wear him down & he’ll run out & buy some, because that’s Josh. If I had to say why Margot loves him, I think maybe I would say it’s because we all do. We are in the living room, Kitty is pasting pictures of dogs lớn a giant piece of cardboard. There’s paper and scraps all around her. Humming lớn herself, she says, “When Daddy asks me what I want for Christmas, I am just going khổng lồ say, ‘Pick any one of these breeds và we’ll be good.’?” Margot & Josh are on the couch; I’m lying on the floor, watching TV. Josh popped a big bowl of popcorn, và I devote myself lớn it, handfuls và handfuls of it. A commercial comes on for perfume: a girl is running around the streets of Paris in an orchid-colored halter dress that is thin as tissue paper. What I wouldn’t give khổng lồ be that girl in that tissue-paper dress running around Paris in springtime! I sit up so suddenly I choke on a kernel of popcorn. Between coughs I say, “Margot, let’s meet in Paris for my spring break!” I’m already picturing myself twirling with a pistachio macaron in one hand và a raspberry one in the other. Margot’s eyes light up. “Do you think Daddy will let you?” “Sure, it’s culture. He’ll have to lớn let me.” But it’s true that I’ve never flown by myself before. & also I’ve never even left the country before. Would Margot meet me at the airport, or would I have khổng lồ find my own way to lớn the hostel? Josh must see the sudden worry on my face because he says, “Don’t worry. Your dad will definitely let you go if I’m with you.” I brighten. “Yeah! We can stay at hostels and just eat pastries và cheese for all our meals.” “We can go khổng lồ Jim Morrison’s grave!” Josh throws in. “We can go khổng lồ a parfumerie and get our personal scents done!” I cheer, and Josh snorts. “Um, I’m pretty sure ‘getting our scents done’ at a parfumerie would cost the same as a week’s stay at the hostel,” he says. He nudges Margot. “Your sister suffers from delusions of grandeur.” “She is the fanciest of the three of us,” Margot agrees. “What about me?” Kitty whimpers. “You?” I scoff. “You’re the least fancy tuy vậy girl. I have khổng lồ beg you to wash your feet at night, much less take a shower.” Kitty’s face gets pinched and red. “I wasn’t talking about that, you dodo bird. I was talking about Paris.” Airily, I wave her off. “You’re too little to lớn stay at a hostel.” She crawls over to lớn Margot and climbs in her lap, even though she’s nine và nine is too big lớn sit in people’s laps. “Margot, you’ll let me go, won’t you?” “Maybe it could be a family vacation,” Margot says, kissing her cheek. “You & Lara Jean and Daddy could all come.” I frown. That’s not at all the Paris trip I was imagining. Over Kitty’s head Josh mouths to me, We’ll talk later, & I give him a discreet thumbs-up. It’s later that night; Josh is long gone. Kitty & our dad are asleep. We are in the kitchen. Margot is at the table on her computer; I am sitting next to her, rolling cookie dough into balls and dropping them in cinnamon và sugar. Snickerdoodles to get back in Kitty’s good graces. Earlier, when I went in to say good night, Kitty rolled over & wouldn’t speak lớn me because she’s still convinced I’m going lớn try lớn cut her out of the Paris trip. My plan is to lớn put the snickerdoodles on a plate right next to lớn her pillow so she wakes up lớn the smell of fresh-baked cookies. Margot’s being extra quiet, và then, out of nowhere, she looks up from her computer & says, “I broke up with Josh tonight. After dinner.” My cookie-dough ball falls out of my fingers and into the sugar bowl. “I mean, it was time,” she says. Her eyes aren’t red-rimmed; she hasn’t been crying, I don’t think. Her voice is calm và even. Anyone looking at her would think she was fine. Because Margot is always fine, even when she’s not. “I don’t see why you had khổng lồ break up,” I say. “Just ’cause you’re going to lớn college doesn’t mean you have lớn break up.” “Lara Jean, I’m going to lớn Scotland, not UVA. Saint Andrews is nearly four thousand miles away.” She pushes up her glasses. “What would be the point?” I can’t even believe she would say that. “The point is, it’s Josh. Josh who loves you more than any boy has ever loved a girl!” Margot rolls her eyes at this. She thinks I’m being dramatic, but I’m not. It’s true—that’s how much Josh loves Margot. He would never so much as look at another girl. Suddenly she says, “Do you know what Mommy told me once?” “What?” For a moment I forget all about Josh. Because no matter what I am doing in life, if Margot and I are in the middle of an argument, if I am about to get hit by a car, I will always stop & listen to lớn a story about Mommy. Any detail, any remembrance that Margot has, I want to lớn have it too. I’m better off than Kitty, though. Kitty doesn’t have one memory of Mommy that we haven’t given her. We’ve told her so many stories so many times that they’re hers now. “Remember that time…,” she’ll say. & then she’ll tell the story lượt thích she was there and not just a little baby. “She told me khổng lồ try not to lớn go to college with a boyfriend. She said she didn’t want me khổng lồ be the girl crying on the phone with her boyfriend và saying no to things instead of yes.” Scotland is Margot’s yes, I guess. Absently, I scoop up a mound of cookie dough & pop it in my mouth. “You shouldn’t eat raw cookie dough,” Margot says. I ignore her. “Josh would never hold you back from anything. He’s not like that. Remember how when you decided lớn run for student-body president, he was your campaign manager? He’s your biggest fan!” At this, the corners of Margot’s mouth turn down, và I get up và fling my arms around her neck. She leans her head back and smiles up at me. “I’m okay,” she says, but she isn’t, I know she isn’t. “It’s not too late, you know. You can go over there right now và tell him you changed your mind.” Margot shakes her head. “It’s done, Lara Jean.” I release her and she closes her laptop. “When will the first batch be ready? I’m hungry.” I look at the magnetic egg timer on the fridge. “Four more minutes.” I sit back down và say, “I don’t care what you say, Margot. You guys aren’t done. You love him too much.” She shakes her head. “Lara Jean,” she begins, in her patient Margot voice, like I am a child & she is a wise old woman of forty-two. I wave a spoonful of cookie dough under Margot’s nose, và she hesitates & then opens her mouth. I feed it khổng lồ her like a baby. “Wait và see, you và Josh will be back together in a day, maybe two.” But even as I’m saying it, I know it’s not true. Margot’s not the kind of girl to lớn break up & get back together on a whim; once she’s decided something, that’s it. There’s no waffling, no regrets. It’s like she said: when she’s done, she’s just done. I wish (and this is a thought I’ve had many, many times, too many times khổng lồ count) I was more lượt thích Margot. Because sometimes it feels like I’ll never be done. Later, after I’ve washed the dishes & plated the cookies and set them on Kitty’s pillow, I go lớn my room. I don’t turn the light on. I go khổng lồ my window. Josh’s light is still on.
#1 new york Times Bestseller, a Netflix film
Lara Jean keeps her love letters in a hatbox her mother gave her. They aren’t love letters that anyone else wrote for her, these are ones she’s written. One for every boy she’s ever loved.
When she writes, she can pour out her heart và soul & say all the things she would never say in real life, because her letters are for her eyes only. Until the day her secret letters are mailed, và suddenly Lara Jean’s love life goes from imaginary lớn out of control.
“Lara Jean’s personality—goofy, awkward, prone lớn strong emotions, and entirely naïve when it comes khổng lồ boys—give this touching story an individuality và charm all its own.” — ★ Publishers Weekly, starred review
P.S. I Still Love You
#1 new york Times Bestseller, a netflix film
Lara Jean didn’t expect lớn really fall for Peter.
They were just pretending. Until they weren’t. And now Lara Jean has to lớn learn what it’s like to be in a real relationship and not just a make believe one. But when another boy from her past returns to her life, Lara Jean’s feelings for him suddenly return, too. Can a girl be in love with two boys at once? In this charming & heartfelt sequel lớn the thủ đô new york Times bestseller khổng lồ ALL THE BOYS I’VE LOVED BEFORE, Lara Jean is about khổng lồ find out that falling in love is the easy part.
Always và Forever Lara Jean
#1 thành phố new york Times Bestseller, a netflix film
Lara Jean is having the best senior year a girl could ever hope for. She is head over heels in love with her boyfriend, Peter; her dad’s finally getting remarried to their next door neighbor, Ms. Rothschild; & Margot’s coming home for the summer just in time for the wedding.
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But change is looming on the horizon. Và while Lara Jean is having fun và keeping busy helping plan her father’s wedding, she can’t ignore the big life decisions she has to lớn make. Most pressingly, where she wants khổng lồ go khổng lồ college and what that means for her relationship with Peter. She watched her sister Margot go through these growing pains. Now Lara Jean’s the one who’ll be graduating high school và leaving for college và leaving her family—and possibly the boy she loves—behind.
When your heart and your head are saying two different things, which one should you listen to?